Stalling

I am fucking stalling.

I need to work on a particular piece of writing, but instead have done the following:

• Watched the rest of season 2 of lost on hulu
• Painfully read 500 pages Anna Karinina (only 450 more to go. Shoot me now.)
• Watched How I Met Your Mother AND Big Love Season Finale
• Wrote a sketch
• Revised three sketches
• Laundry
• Pitched a sketch
• Read my friend’s screenplay
• Took notes on the screenplay
• Lost notes on the screenplay (doh!)
• Began watching Season 3 of Lost
• Facebooked people from my high school to see if anyone I knew got married
• Looked at wedding photos if they in fact got married
• Wrote a 9 page poem (yep, that’s an epic)
• Checked my gmail
• Made the poem rhyme
• Checked my comedy troupe’s gmail
• Facebooked my photos to see what people from high school would think of me if they were checking up to see if I got married
• Vacuumed my room
• Laundry to dryer
• Installed updates on my computer.
• Made tea
• Ate some cookies
• Got my plug out to charge my computer
• Text the word “BOOTS!” to my friend Lauren
• Skyped my boyfriend
• Began reading the Pulp Fiction screenplay
• Got to episode 10 of Season 3 of Lost
• Started rewriting notes for my friend’s screenplay
• Started this blog

Why is it the some of the things we want to do most in the world scare us so much that we avoid them?

• Contemplated why I don’t want to work on this writing
• Opened the writing document I needed to work on
• Stared on my screen
• Downloaded some songs onto my IPod
• Got on youtube to watch the music videos of the songs just downloaded
• Uploaded pictures from my camera and onto my facebook.
• Stared at the screen
• Yoga
• Ate a scoop of peanut butter
• Thought about the terrible movie I saw knowing I could write something better
• Got to a stopping point on this blog as I thought about writing something better
• Believed I could write something better
• Looked at the writing document, gulped, dived in.

Because I don’t want to stall into misery.  I don’t want to stall into nothingness. I need to write something better, no matter how scary it is to try.

– One L

“I love zoom in’s at the Oscars. It’s like camera is asking, “What does Kathy Bates think of this acceptance speech?””

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